creepy things creep me out...

strange things have been happening... creepy stuff.
i have always thought that i was a positive, nice, kind, caring, respectful person... but people seem to lack intrest in that! what i mean is, im not understanding why there is soooooo much negative energy around me. when im happy... no one seems to be happy for me... i just dont get it.

this week has been, CONFUSING! soooo much has been happening. like i noticed that lately there is a lot of up and down going on in my life... and its making me nauseas. i just want everything to eventually level out so that i can enjoy this life of mine that i was loaned for however many years God permitted. I think i need a NAP... that last for like an entire day. & when i wake up i will be at least half way ready to deal with half of the things im dealing with...

...anyways... im still praying every single day

Day & Night

things seem so promising when you're optimistic about it...
but I spend my days in a daze and my nights in a dream...
im confused about the difference between what i want & what i need...
i hold on tight to things because i love hard & slow...
i love hard because i want that person to feel what i feel for them...
i love slow because i want to cherish every moment, & every minute...
im tired...
i know i have a little more fight in me, but im tired...
and i dont think this is a "well i need a power nap" kinda tired...
i need to not only rest, but think...
ima believer in Love...
i do believe all you need is Love...
but its easy to feel like you have nothing when youre not so sure about that "Love"
this is my fault...
i set myself up for failure by not living in reality...
i spend my days in a daze & my nights in a dream...
-Nieshhh